Batwoman, X-Ladies and a little bit of Bubbline

Some new pencils for convention prints- I’d forgotten how much fun fanart it! Woop!

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This one’s a little convoluted, I worry- because I’m mashing up two of my favorite fandoms- Princess Bubblegum and Marceline the Vampire Queen from Adventure Time, dressed as Anthy and Utena from Revolutionary Girl Utena, one of my very first and forever anime love. Also, I’m pretty sure these two just need to get it on in Adventure Time and get it over with. 

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X-Laaaadies! From the new X-Men serial out right now. Can I tell you how happy I am about costumes for Psylock and Storm that COVER THEIR ASSES? Cause I’m pretty damn happy. Also, the Mohawk is baaaaaack and I’m psyched. 

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And finally, Batwoman! She’s the only New 52 series that I really care about at the moment, but hot damn do I love Kate Cain to death and back. Still working on getting flat blacks incorporated in my work, so all three will have flats in the inkwork- cross your fingers for me!

 

Next is inks! 

Faint Heart Never Won Fair Freelance

So, the story for today started (as a surprising number of the stories of my life do) on Craigslist. I try to troll through the ‘creative gigs’ section a few times a week. Mostly, I email people and never get replies, but every once and a while, something comes along that might actually be an opportunity to expand my portfolio a bit, and perhaps make some slight bit of money.

I found such an ad a few days ago, for someone needing basic character designs. Basic characters? I can do that! I can do that! I reply to the ad and I get back a set of specs to draw a couple characters- if they like ’em, they’ll pay me and send me more work. The description was basically: Generic handsome man in generic military gear holding a fancy knife. And THEN, just to shake things up, draw a generic pretty lady in generic military gear holding the same fancy knife. Woo.

But, beggars can’t be choosers, and I did some designs. Were they the most inspired, breathtaking work I’ve ever done in my entire life ever? No. They weren’t. I didn’t have a lot to work with, and I was afraid to experiment and go outside the lines and upset the client. So I came up with these guys.

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(Reeealy poor image quality, I’ll put up a better version when I’m on my computer at home.)

Are they great? No. Are they generic as hell? Yes. But they’re well colored and everything he asked for in the ad. Well, he asked for ‘gritty cartoon style’ and I have no idea what the hell that means. Frank Miller? Jhonen Vasquez? Hideo Kojima? Or, you know, pictures of dirty people? I just worked in my style and hoped for the best.

Over the interwebs these designs went, with me hoping to maybe make a few bucks out of the deal at the very best. The next day I got an email back saying that my work was ‘interesting’ but ‘not the quality’ he was looking for. And it put me in a bit of a snit, not going to lie. No matter what I do, my work is NOT low quality. It may not have had the certain qualities he was looking for, but don’t word it that way. If he wanted a specific style, he needed to be more specific. “Gritty’ don’t fucking cut it.

It was at this point that I told myself to take a deep breath and remember that I was dealing with someone off Craigslist, not a rep from Konami. But even with all the zen breathing and rational thoughts, I was still bummed out about this whole thing for days. Days. And I’m beginning to realize that’s part of my problem. Every tiny failure hits me like a ton of bricks and it takes me forever to pick myself up again. Silly things like this take huge chunks out of my self esteem, when they should bounce off of me without a second thought.

I want to put heart and effort into everything I do, but how do I do that while still maintaining a thick skin? I guess that’s the six million dollar question, isn’t it?

 

January Sketches

Well good evening, my dears. Hope everyone is doing well this weekend and has fun things planned. Been doing some sketching lately, thought I’d show some of the better ones of the month. Also- finally finished that birthday present! 

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Which can also be seen on my Deviant Art page. 

I’m actually pretty happy with the way it turned out! Now, onto sketches. 

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A lot of August, the main character of the comic I’m trying to get off the ground- still working on her tattoos, she needs more around her ribs, methinks- what about you? Also a few of a new little creature I’ve invented called a Soot Fidget- I’m quite enamored with them at the moment- they’re like tiny garbage disposals, they’ll eat anything. But their absolute favorite things to eat are gold and diamonds. They’re sneaky little buggers. The little bat child is another incarnation of Bell- the creepy kid in the painting I just finished up- in this world she owns an antique bookstore by day and assassinates people by night. I think she has a massive collection of frilly dresses too. Mostly because I like drawing frilly dresses. 

Snot Factory

As the title suggests, my body has decided to start producing mucus at an industrial rate, which has really been messing with my creative flow as of late. However, I have been getting a few things done, mostly at work when I should be doing other things. 

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Almost done with this one, still don’t know what to put in his hands- everything I stick in there seems to look like a penis. Sigh. 

 

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Also threw out this one today- started as a self portrait, realized it looked pretty much nothing like me, and so I continued to doodle on it just for practice with color. I liked working with the kind of limited palette in her face, but I feel like I should experiment more with getting life-like color. 

 

Also, I have just discovered basically everything in my fridge has gone bad. I’m thinking that’s a sign that I’m meant to eat nachos. 

2014- The Offical Year of Getting Off My Ass.

So, I’m going to put this out in the infinite blogosphere because maybe someone will read it and that guilt alone is enough to motivate me to at least attempt to finish what I’m about to start.

2013 was a rough year for me. It was my first year out of college, living on my own and attempting to make my way as an adult. It was the year I broke off a five-year relationship and called off a very expensive wedding, first in a very bad, selfish way, and then for the best of all parties involved. It was the year that I got my first 9-5 job that I have kept for almost nine months now, working with some of the best people I’ve had a chance to meet. It was the year of the new apartment, the new space that I am allowed to call my own and no one else’s, and that I continue to gunk up because I refuse to do laundry on any kind of reasonable schedule. It was the year of exploration- some good, some very bad, but all together what I needed when I needed it. It was the year when I grew up. Maybe not all the way, but I definitely moved up on that internal growth chart a few notches. It was a year of change.

But now, 2013 is behind me. So where do I go from here? During all the craziness that was the past twelve months, I feel like my artwork in all forms- my painting, my illustration, my comic work, has taken a back seat. In some ways, it had to for me to keep my sanity. But in other ways, not being able to create and move forward on projects has been driving me absolutely insane.

So this year, I’m getting off my ass. I’m going to bring my creative pursuits back to forefront of my mind. I’m going to give myself projects and deadlines and I’m going to make sure everyone knows about them so I can’t slack off or procrastinate. I’m going to fill up my illustration portfolio with beautiful, solid personal work, and then I’m going to do the same for my comics, graphic design and painting. I’m going to stop wasting time and I’m going to stop being scared of failure. Obviously, this is not going to happed in the next 48 hours. But I think maybe, if I have a whole year to work on it, I might be able to get something done.

This blog is an amazing tool and resource that I haven’t really been using as of late, and I want to change that. I’m kind of a crotchety old luddite lady when it comes to social media and digital portfolios and all those good things I need to have if I’d like to succeed at what I do. So I’m taking baby steps. And this is my first one. I want this blog to be a place for my ideas to percolate, for sketches and rants and works in progress to curl up together and fight and dance and see what happens. I also want it to be an archive, I want to see how much I can accomplish in one year. And maybe, along the way I can amuse a few denizens of this strange place we call the internet.

So I’m starting fresh. I’m giving myself permission to wipe the slate clean and begin again. And it feels great.

 

Until Later,

Cait

30 Day Monster Girl Challenge- Day 1, Harpy

Day 1 of the 30 Day Monster Girl Challenge

I figured I’d start this blog off with a continuing project, so I have some kind of motivation to actually see it all the way through. I’m attempting the 30 Day Monster Girl challenge, where I have to complete a piece a day for thirty days, according to the theme of the day. I finished this last night, but we’re gonna count it for today- meet my Harpy. I think all my monster ladies might end up with a kind of supernatural Mad Max feel, just because that’s what I’ve been really digging on lately. But we shall see- thirty days is a long time.

Tomorrow is Centaur- I draw horses about as well as I draw mecha, which is to say, not at all. So that’ll be fun.