So, I’m going to put this out in the infinite blogosphere because maybe someone will read it and that guilt alone is enough to motivate me to at least attempt to finish what I’m about to start.
2013 was a rough year for me. It was my first year out of college, living on my own and attempting to make my way as an adult. It was the year I broke off a five-year relationship and called off a very expensive wedding, first in a very bad, selfish way, and then for the best of all parties involved. It was the year that I got my first 9-5 job that I have kept for almost nine months now, working with some of the best people I’ve had a chance to meet. It was the year of the new apartment, the new space that I am allowed to call my own and no one else’s, and that I continue to gunk up because I refuse to do laundry on any kind of reasonable schedule. It was the year of exploration- some good, some very bad, but all together what I needed when I needed it. It was the year when I grew up. Maybe not all the way, but I definitely moved up on that internal growth chart a few notches. It was a year of change.
But now, 2013 is behind me. So where do I go from here? During all the craziness that was the past twelve months, I feel like my artwork in all forms- my painting, my illustration, my comic work, has taken a back seat. In some ways, it had to for me to keep my sanity. But in other ways, not being able to create and move forward on projects has been driving me absolutely insane.
So this year, I’m getting off my ass. I’m going to bring my creative pursuits back to forefront of my mind. I’m going to give myself projects and deadlines and I’m going to make sure everyone knows about them so I can’t slack off or procrastinate. I’m going to fill up my illustration portfolio with beautiful, solid personal work, and then I’m going to do the same for my comics, graphic design and painting. I’m going to stop wasting time and I’m going to stop being scared of failure. Obviously, this is not going to happed in the next 48 hours. But I think maybe, if I have a whole year to work on it, I might be able to get something done.
This blog is an amazing tool and resource that I haven’t really been using as of late, and I want to change that. I’m kind of a crotchety old luddite lady when it comes to social media and digital portfolios and all those good things I need to have if I’d like to succeed at what I do. So I’m taking baby steps. And this is my first one. I want this blog to be a place for my ideas to percolate, for sketches and rants and works in progress to curl up together and fight and dance and see what happens. I also want it to be an archive, I want to see how much I can accomplish in one year. And maybe, along the way I can amuse a few denizens of this strange place we call the internet.
So I’m starting fresh. I’m giving myself permission to wipe the slate clean and begin again. And it feels great.